at odds with the world

You ever have one of those days when you feel at odds with the world? Like you woke up, and somehow offended the world and now the whole day, you walk around going, "I'm not sure what I did or didn't do, but the world doesn't seem to like me today". Well, okay, my day's not that bad, but that fuzzy, light-headed, out-of-it feeling when you're not sure what to do with yourself... I'm having one of those moments today.

I'm pretty sure I convinced the lady waiting at the bus stop with me this morning that I was just recently released from the mental institute. I walked over to the bus stop completely normal. And then, because I felt out of it and blech, started walking along the curbs and falling off... C'mon, everyone's walked along them at some point, but usually not by yourself. So, anyways, I was doing this, and then finally I just stood still on one of them and tried to balance while still waiting for the bus. Good times. One person walked by us and I said nothing. But then, I started thinking, I wonder what these people's mornings are like and maybe they'd cheer up by a happy "Good Morning!" So, the next guy to walk by... I said "Good Morning!" and I think he had a heart attack. He mumbled in my direction and then walked really fast away. So, feeling more like I've offended the universe, I said nothing when the next person walked by and continued to attempt to balance on the curb/parking stopper/bumper hitter thing I was standing on. (The sidewalk is right beside a parking lot so it was those things... I'm blanking on what they're called today.) Hence why I think the lady waiting with me thought I was nuts. I felt really out of sorts by the time I got on the bus, and the bus always is full when I get on so there's a ton of people standing and me with my backpack, I just kept getting in the way or getting squished or doing the squishing or dropping my backpack or....BAH. Just was one of those mornings when... I don't know, the world rotated backwards or something for a little bit...

Anyways... today was one of those days that if I could've hid in my room the whole day, I would have definitely taken the option. And, not that I didn't pray when I got up and I did my devos and all that... I guess it was just one of those off days, you know? I don't know if this makes sense... But I send an apology out to that lady at the bus stop, because I didn't say "Good Morning" to her.